I can’t cope

[Jynx]

Hey @Captain24 sounds like you had a rough night last night, all spun about with ya sleep? How you travelling this arvo?

[Captain24]

We’ve got a little bit of thunder now but it won’t turn into a storm @Bow. It’s a shame. I love storms. 

Bugger you could find the Lego. I finished off the pink bouquet at 1:30 this morning. I need to find a case to put it in. I’ve also done the mini orchard.

Rest is good but I think I’ve got it reversed. I was wide awake at 2:30 this morning but have slept most of the day. 

Sorry about poor D. I hope she feels better real soon. 

[Captain24]

I’m all over the place @Jynx. I’ve slept most of the day. 

Im trying to do diamond art but I just can’t focus. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 ach, that sucks, I am no stranger to focusing struggles!! Switch to something less demanding of your attention? 

What's the diamond art anyway? I'm curious!

[Captain24]

I’ve got no focus on anything @Jynx. I keep jumping from one thing to another. I can’t sit still long enough. It’s like I’m restless but at the same time I have no energy.

It’s a picture of Pix and Angel. It’s the last photo I took of them together before we lost Angel. It’ll take me months to do. It’s quite detailed and I’ve only just started. 

How has your day been?

[Jynx]

@Captain24 I call that 'listlessness' for myself, it's like restlessness but with this layer of fatigue that makes me go 'Ugh CBF' to like, everything, even the enjoyable things. I usually just end up kinda... milling about, maybe chuck on one of my comfort tv shows and play games on my phone until the boredom overtakes the exhaustion? 

Awww cute!! Definitely one that would also carry some emotional vibes so there's another reason it might be a little extra challenging for you at the moment!! 

My day has been alright! Mostly hiding from the heat so far. Cleaned the ever-loving crap outta my kitchen yesterday (with much help from my partner, I would NOT have been able to do it by myself!!) and re-organised all the shelves so I think later tonight will be finalising those bits and starting to look at some other sections that are getting Kondo'd next! 

[Captain24]

That’s it @Jynx. I’m bored with everything. I’m watching Netflix and I can’t focus on it either. 

I have had so many smokes this afternoon as it’s something to do that’s moving. 

Does your kitchen feel fresher? What’s next? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 sometimes I do find a lil walk helpful if I'm feeling listless - it doesn't require any actual focus so I can just kinda plod along. Or yeah watching tv shows but ones I've seen a hundred times so I don't actually care if I miss anything. 

Kitchen feels SO FRESH!! Teehee! Now the trick is to keep it fresh... my greatest weakness 😅

Next up is loungeroom, I am still deciding whether I wanna bring my desk out so I can set up my computer in the air con and make my computer room a craft room... Plus I have to go through my CHAOS SHELVES... they've been my 'dumping ground' for any random crap I didn't know what to do with, for like 2 years.

Pure Chaos 😝

[Captain24]

We are having an electrical storm with a bit of rain so walking is out @Jynx. I’ve been standing in it though. It’s not washing anything away though. Nothing is helping me and it’s making me agitated. 

I have similar issues with keeping it that way. It least it will feel fresher for a while and maybe help keep it that way for a little while.

Oh decisions on lay outs! What to put and where… and ‘those’ shelves. Thats one of my spare rooms! It’s a whole room not shelves! 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 Ach agitation is no fun. Like having a brain itch ay. Got a pillow to scream into? I feel like scream therapy is underrated 😋

Yeah it's hard ay!! I am trying to break it down into very small goals since I get oh so easily overwhelmed - my only goal right now is to build the habit of ensuring that all my dishes are done at the end of the day. I don't have a dishwasher and have a bad habit of leaving things for ages 'to soak' and then I end up with a MASSIVE pile of really gross bowls and pots of murky soaking water. So yuck!

Ahaha yeaaaah I also have a room, too. I call it my office (or maybe soon my craft room yaaaay) but it has been a dumping ground for like, 2 years now. You can juuuust barely walk through it lol. It's at the bottom of the list to get stuck into because I need everywhere else to be clear for all the crap to come out of there!! 😅