Something’s not right
@Former-Member What you did for your Mum and Dad can never be taken away from you Hon - the rest of the family can think or feel what they like but you are the one that was there for them so do not let their attitudes change the care you gave - in my eyes you are a true champion 
I too find 'doing things' beneficial for my MH - the more I do the better I feel also. That is not always possible with work commitments or energy levels but when I do achieve something it does make me feel more positive about life.There is something about working with our hands and allowing our minds to think about the task rather than float away to the tougher thoughts that is very therapeutic. I hope you find that too 
@Former-Member You give heaps when you can. That is enough. The ups and downs in mood make you who you are. The forum has become a great place to share as a whole person and not just the cheery times.
I cant keep up with it all either. Still knowing you has made a positive difference even though we are not the same about all things.
Hang in there and do the practical stuff. Dont be too hard on self, as a nurse you know the numbers, just keep moving ... a little ...
Good morning dear @Former-Member 😊💓 and thank you for your lovely post of yesterday 🙏
Glad you liked the cute little chicks image I posted for you a couple of days ago, and that it gave you a smile. I loved it too, so I thought you would.
Thanks for your concern about me, but I am actually starting to do a little better. Slowly but surely ... both in a physical sense and an emotional sense too. Yes the long awaited (3.5 months since the last one) psych appointment on Wednesday went ahead ... was not cancelled at the last minute thankfully. It was long and difficult, and we covered a lot in the more than hour and a half that I was in there. Much of it was extremely difficult, but I feel better for having been able to finally voice it all to a live person. Cleansing I guess, and empowering too. Makes me realise that I do have a voice, and that people are hearing ... and some even understand.
But yes, you're right ... its also very draining. And I feel very wrung out. Its true also that the parliament house issues have been a constant source of continuing triggers. Its really hard to ignore or to push to the back of our mind. Oh yes ... I saw some of the Australian of the Year address on Wednesday. But not all of it, because I had to go out for my psych appointment. But what I saw live, and what I saw in replay later ... young Grace was very very good. She is strong yet almost gentle, powerful in her delivery and in her message. Quite the inspiration isnt she .. young Grace?
I know you understand all this @Former-Member . Though I wish you didn't. I wish you had not been through all the horrible things that you have had to endure in your lifetime.
I would love for you to send me a nice image, you always choose good ones. So any time you'd like to ... I will happily accept. Appropriate pics are just as good as words .. so please dont be concerned about finding words if you are not up to it.
I'm glad @Former-Member that you are better than you were a couple of days ago .. less tears, and less SI. I agree with you that its really difficult to keep up with everyone on the forums that we would like to. Please dont concern yourself over that ... most of us have similar difficulties I think, and do understand. Well dont for busying yourself with practical hands on tasks ... if it calms the soul, then its a great thing. Keep doing that.
Good news too about getting your allied health plan review done by your GP yesterday. I have one of those too and also had a couple of exercise physiologist sessions covered by it. Fingers crossed that between the ex phys and the dietician ... you can get on track to maintain a healthier weight and stabilise those poor aching joints. I see that your BP and BSL levels were both good. That is a big thing in your favour EOR.
Sorry that the brief visit from your friend was not what it should have been. Oh well .. next time may be better. At least she cares enough to call in to see you .. thats a plus.
I hope you have a good day today. Have you made apts yet for either the dietician or an exercise physiologist? Sending love and a hug.
Emelia 💞
