Yeah. I think it was too late @tyme but I can only go when I have enough time off work. I’m trying to work out the logistics of the next one. Also my psych won’t be facilitating at the start of the year so I want to wait until she does it. It’ll be better having the behind the scene help. It might make it easier. 

My GP only works 2 days a week and he is always booked out. I have to try and call on Tuesday to get my scripts written out correctly. Maybe with the right meds it’ll make things a little better. 

I look at my safety plan regularly and I try and do some of it frequently. Plus I know I need to reach out quicker. With my new psych I will have better support. We will make some progress for when things get tough. She even made me give her a name of someone she can call if she is concerned for my safety. My old one has no contact and never once suggested hospital. Since this one works at the hospital I will have to fight to stay out. 

It is tough coming back, when I lose it too far I kinda give up. I’m trying to do things so I have an achievement for the day. Today was getting up early and going to get dad’s birthday cake and I walked the dogs. Plus I’ve done some washing and tidying up. If it warms up I would like to spend some time in the sun. I am working hard on the self-care thing.