@Captain24 I'm scooping you up into the squishiest virtual hug of all time! You're one of my favourite piles of atoms and I'm SO GLAD you take up space!! Pretty please will you try to continue to do so? 

Well 'boundaries' is a pretty big topic so it should be broadly applicable across your life. Maybe this incident is a good example you could talk to your psych about? Especially the part about 'don't worry captain'll do it' cos that to me speaks volumes.

I think that it's not that these wonderful qualities are your 'worst' ones hun, and more that you haven't yet learned how to show kindness and compassion to yourself, which is what makes it harder to implement firm boundaries and harder not to have people take advantage. 

Aye, and that's why suicide ideation is such a common coping method. Because it promises relief from the things that are sources of such agony. It makes sense that it would offer a sense of calm, because it relies on the faulty belief that things will never get better, and thus seems like the best option. You'd get a similar sense of calm if say, I told you I found a magic wand that would make all your stress go away. That's all it is - stress relief. Only problem, is that it's the kind of relief that you don't actually get to enjoy. 

What are you up to at the moment anyway hun? Dogs giving you any mischief?