Sorry about last night @Jynx I hope I didn’t upset you. I’ve been worrying about it all day. 

I had my psych appointment. There is never enough time. We were going to go over my snake issue. I can’t move past it. It’s front and centre of my thoughts. It’s causing me so much anxiety. We didn’t get time. 

We were going to go over my flashbacks from my car accident what has come about after the guy grabbing the steering wheel while I was driving. Didn’t have time. 

I have my best friend coming around shortly for an hour while she waits to pick up her son. We focussed on that. How to set internal boundaries and not take on board her family issues. To distance myself from them. I have to do self talk to bring myself back. She asked me how I felt when she said that and I said my skin tingles and I feel sick. She was impressed that I could notice the sensations and said I sound anxious. We went over why. If I need to cry after the visit then let myself. She asked how I could comfort myself and I went straight to distraction and she said no. She meant laying on the lounge with my weighted Dino. 

I also have to write a letter to my best friend when she leaves (not to give to her) to allow me to put her issues down on paper and out of my head. 

My psychs thesis that she is doing is how people take on board what others are feeling. 

I bought snake deterrents today. They make a buzzing noise and create vibrations through the ground. I’ve put one in and I’ve started digging the hole for a second one. The ground is rock (literally) hard. I’m have to try and do another one on Friday morning when I have my morning off. 

Sorry that was a ramble. Still so much more inside that I need to get out.